Friday, May 22, 2015

Truth hurts



Assalamualaikum,

If many of you readers have read the tittle i guess you would know what this post about right?

Yup it is about truth or in malay 'KEBENARAN'.

Indeed that truth may hurt you, but i believe it is better than you don't know the truth at all. If you don't know or didn't want to know, you will be wondering for the rest of your life not knowing it.

I always believe that we should always seek the TRUTH. About what we didn't know or maybe we know about it a bit but doesn't quite sure. 

Recently or should i say 'sudah lama dah' I knew about the news it just i want the certainty whether what i knew is really happening. Surprisingly YES.

It is happening but i shouldn't blame him cause i let him go. I AM THE ONE who asked him to go to her so i should know better. Maybe after i broke his heart he went for her, so i supposedly shouldn't be too surprise right?.

OR

Because I don't showed him that i really care for him or love him maybe? So that's why he gave up on me and went for her. Probably right?..


UNFORTUNATELY I am a little bit disappointed cause THE TRUTH REALLY HURT ME.





But i know what i feel, i am so true about what i said  how I LOVED HIM. I know he love me too by the way of his action towards me.

Although it disappoint me but i should let go about the past right.

I dua' for him everyday eventhough i knew the truth. I just want to know the truth cause i don't want to be wonder all my life what really happen..but actually it's only a little bit of the truth not all cause the rest of the story i still don't know..

And yes i still wondering what is the rest of the story but hmm...like how they met? how and..
Why? why?

Although it was too late....i just hmm..

If you can understand what i feel right now maybe you would know better....

BUT DON'T WORRY I accept it...Itu semua takdir ALLAH..

Friday, May 15, 2015

Kenangan Terindah Untukku



ALHAMDULILLAH...


Akhirnya aku dah redha atas segala ketentuan-NYA..

Aku dah boleh redha dia dah tiada buat selama-lamanya..



Aku dah boleh move on continuing my life like before this..makan dah ok, semua la except my sleep only..

But i never forget about him, everything...NEVER..

Tentang hati aku..nak kata hati aku terbuka hmm tak jugak..nak kata hati aku tertutup selamanya tak jugak..aku akan terima takdir ALLAH itu sahaja aku boleh cakap buat masa ini..


Dia akan Aku jadikan kenangan terindah dalam hidup aku..

I know i will never met a person like him anymore..That's i'm sure..

And this will be a lesson on my life, my future.. so that i will never repeat the same mistake again.

InsyaALLAH..






Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Pergi Kesana


Assalammualaikum,

Aku sebenarnya kurang faham mengapa aku seperti tidak diizinkan untuk kesana.

Padahal aku pergi bukan menziarah sahaja tapi kerana ada kenduri kahwin abang dia. Ingat aku saja-saja ke buat cerita supaya aku pergi sana.

Aku tak pernah tipu, kalau aku cakap pergi menziarah ,memang aku pergi menziarah la.

Kalau aku cakap pergi orang kahwin so pergi orang kahwin la.

Aku tak minta pun duit mereka untuk kesana tapi kalau nak bagi aku OK je.

Actually 30/5 hujung bulan ni ada kawan aku kahwin kat sana. Tapi bila aku fikir aku baru je pergi awal bulan 5 hari tu, so takde la pergi sana. Tapi jika diikutkan hati memang aku nak je pergi.

Jadi aku rasa aku pergi bulan Jun ni sepatutnya tiada masalah kan..

Tolong la faham perasaan aku.

Kalau kubur dia dekat, aku pergi la seminggu sekali entah-entah 2 kali seminggu..tak kisah la orang nak cakap apa pon. Malangnya jauh jadi aku tak boleh pergi selalu just doa dari jauh.

Lagipun memang dalam buku ROH yang aku baca tu, memang Roh akan suka bila kita menziarah mereka.

Tambahan pula aku bukan pun meraung bila pergi sana, aku cuma baca Yasin je. Aku rasa tiada salahnya..

(P/S: ada hikmahnya aku dapat pekerjaan masa 17/3/2015 haritu, jika tidak tentu aku tiada fulus untuk kesana )
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